My Aunt Jeanie took some pictures of me and the girls while she was in town. How amazing to be able to say "Me & my girls". What a gift they are to me! It was eye opening to me today as I took both girls out by myself for the first time. I think we'll be staying home more as a result of this trip :). Actually, it wasn't too bad. I did notice I was much more tempted to be harsh and impatient when Alathea did not obey. I had Abigail in the car ready to go and came back in to put Alathea's shoes on and get her in the car. Well, she first decided to disobey- which meant me having to discipline her while Abigail was sitting in the car (not to smart to put her in first- but I am still learning). Then once I had Alathea's shoes on she started crying for her bunny, which of course I couldn't find. So I had to get Abigail out of the car so I could look for bunny. I've never been tempted to be angry at Alathea for asking for bunny- but I was today as her newborn sister sat in the car by herself. It was quite eye opening into my sinful heart!! Alathea has always asked for bunny, and I typically have no problem spending a few minutes searching for her. But now my "sponge is squeezed" a bit more with having two, and the sin that has always been in there is pouring out! The good thing is as a result I am much more aware of my dependence on the Lord to be patient, loving & kind with my two girls, who are such undeserved gifts to me. And I am much more aware of how sinful I am. I'm sure with each week that goes by I will become more and more aware of that!
I'm also learning how to love three people well. That sounds silly, but it can be difficult to feel like I am adaquatly loving Joe, Alathea & Abigail. Sometimes I feel stretched too thin...like I should be spending more time caring for one of them. I know this is not true, as God will give me the grace to love each of them. And I look at Moms with WAY more kids than I have and they do it well. Any advice anyone??